Loving you in silence was a choice I had to make
Do I shout it out loud and suffer from rejection?
Or do I hold it down and wallow from indecision?

I choose to wallow in my indecision
Because after all, the pain of not knowing
Is nothing compared to the pain
Of knowing they do not feel the same

Funny how easy it is to be real
Tell that to someone and make a deal
And violá! A trust is born!
I reckless mistake I could’ve sworn

Hey self, prove to me that you’re strong
Stronger than imbeciles who do nothing but get along
But how can I be strong for the world and myself brings me down
Please save me now, for I have a lifetime to drown

Boy oh boy it’s great to be born again
Facing another day with the same cycle, amen
I ask for forgiveness for all the things I have done
And for being myself, because being me is not fun

I never wanted this kind of pain
This devastation left me unwanted and drained
I never chose and deserved any of this
I’m sorry, O Lord God, for I can’t change